I've lived a thousand lives
And you were only part of one
A distant shadow of a memory
Amidst the life I've just begun.
And while it's sometimes hard
To tell the past from what's real
It's never been enough
To justify the way I feel.
There is so much more underneath
More than anyone will see
And my greatest stifling fear
Is that no one will ever look for me.
I know who I am
I know what I can be
But I know that you
Only see the worst of me.
My heart starts to crumble
Though my mind stays strong
Because while I see one thing
The mirror's never wrong.
I pick myself up
Only to fall back down
Mindful of the ticking clock
Hoping my time will come around.
If I make it one more day
With a smile on my face
At least I hold the dream
Of a distant vacant space.
Arms outstretched
And hope growing thin
It's about where I'm going
Not where I've been.
I choose a world
That hasn't chosen me
But the more I believe
The better off I'll be.
